Archive For The “Here I Am” Category

He Quit The Job Before The Blood Flowed

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He Quit The Job Before The Blood Flowed

At the end, someone or something always gives up. It is either you give up and quit or the obstacle or failure gives up and makes way for your success to come through. – Idowu Koyenikan i got a gun gonna have me some fun shoot my boss won’t be no loss and would you believe…

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A Love Story

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A Love Story

There was a brief silence. I think I heard snow falling. – Erich Segal A love story. Summer. Hot. Very hot. She came towards me with the sun at her back. She moved closer. As she ran, I could see her slender body through a thin flowery dress. And I could see her hair flow,…

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Prostate Exam Makes A Man Proud

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Prostate Exam Makes A Man Proud

Not every puzzle is intended to be solved. Some are in place to test your limits. Others are, in fact, not puzzles at all. –  Vera Nazarian My name is Barker Ajax and everybody appears to be out to lunch. I help myself to a blank copy of the Prostate Cancer Screening Questionnaire. A young…

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The First Anniversary Of The Pandemic

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The First Anniversary Of The Pandemic

You’re captives of a civilizational system that more or less compels you to go on destroying the world in order to live. … You are captives—and you have made a captive of the world itself. That’s what’s at stake, isn’t it?—your captivity and the captivity of the world. – Daniel Quinn “Get your head out…

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You Can’t Get Today Back

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You Can’t Get Today Back

Do you think that I count the days? There is only one day left, always starting over: it is given to us at dawn and taken away from us at dusk. – Jean-Paul Sartre Yesterday’s tomorrow is here today. The future is just a chain of nows linked together. And that chain is only as…

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For Lawrence Ferlinghetti With My Apologies

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For Lawrence Ferlinghetti With My Apologies

I was in the next-to-the-last-place I wanted to be – Vietnam being the last place – and I had a poster of Allen Ginsberg on my wall. He’s holding a sign – Make Love, Not War. I was thinking about “Howl.” And for some reason, I never got promoted. Squawk, Squawk!! Swooping o’er his turf…

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Old Youth (You Might Say I Had A Vision)

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Old Youth (You Might Say I Had A Vision)

I saw into the future a few times in my life and it was always scary. My scalp is beginning to display itself. Like leaves in a steady breeze in early autumn one by one, my hair drops off flutters slowly till the branch is bare. My belly grows between my feet and my face,…

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Valentine’s Day 2021

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Valentine’s Day 2021

To gain your own voice, forget about having it heard. – Allen Ginsberg First thought, my second favorite holiday. The highs are so high and the lows can be so low. Some years in February you stick your neck out and see six more days/weeks/months/years alone, some years you don’t. Next, for a guy born…

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Pandemic Hair Styles For Seniors

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Pandemic Hair Styles For Seniors

I’ve always assumed the old men were just there, fixed, like lamps, but in love with their moths. – Tom Cardamone As indicated by the caption, that’s an old photo. That’s a look that got me profiled in New Hampshire, walking in a ritzy neighborhood. ‘A fitness buff and a real estate voyeur, he looked like…

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I Go To The City

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I Go To The City

Become present with your life and wake up. – Natalie Goldberg I go to the city and see chaos. I go to the forest and find everything in perfect order. 2/24/1995

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