See What You Don’t Understand

See what you don’t understand I spend all my time trying not to go insane, trying not to kill myself, trying not to get depressed.  Can be tiring.  Reached out for help, most everybody’s in worse shape than the old man.  Try to explain that to somebody, especially yourself.  Can become confusing.

See you’re not really all that bad off.  He had one buddy, finally got back in touch.  Just out of the hospital again.  More surgeries coming up..  Not fair to my wife, he says.

See that’s a good guy.  Real good guy.  The old man’s aged aunt had finally hauled her ass out of surgery, told them what they could do with re-hab and came straight back home.  For God’s sake, don’t ask her about the operation.  She can tell you.  All about all of it.  You really don’t want to hear whole story.  Woman has no mercy when comes to relating gory icky medical details.

See Uncle’s body has recovered but we’re unclear about his brain and he wants to argue.  All the time.  About everything.  Of course, he does.  The medicine seems to have quieted the cousin’s brain tumor.  We should get our own health channel on cable, he tells her.

See it’s part of the plan, the really old aunt told the old man.  Part of the plan, I like that.  My own friends have been calling it a journey.  Feel an air quote coming on.

See maybe they are both right.  Life is a trip through time.  A long trip for the lucky or maybe not, a trip to which there exists a plan.  We just can’t know what it is.  Probably best.

See what you don’t understand there’s no surprise ending.  Why here why now why us.  Why not.

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